小半

Dare not look back

Looking around, unnaturally liking you secretly

Secretly striking up conversations, endlessly restless

Tentatively saying goodnight, so hollow and heartbreaking

Muttering with head down

My partiality for you is too blatant

The clown spinning in place is constantly heartbroken

Leaving empty regrets, so embarrassing and awkward

Relieved, sluggish, enjoying to the fullest, after time air-dries it, you and I have nothing to do with each other anymore

No answer, what to do, can't stand my own self-deception

Indulging the liked, the hated, the doted, the tired

One by one slowly fading

Indulging the willful, the casual, the presumptuous, the easy

Overturning all the joy

Shouldn't be too soft-hearted, not bold, too rigid, indecisive

Playing around unscrupulously

Shouldn't have abandoned, given up, let go, cut off thoughts

Helpless and impatient

Doesn't count

Dimming lights

My heart borrowed your light, is it bright or dark

Laughing at my own overflowing emotions, all alone

Self-mockery becomes a habit, so sensitive and hard to deal with

Muttering with head down

My partiality for you is too blatant

The clown spinning in place is constantly heartbroken

Leaving empty regrets, so embarrassing and awkward

Relieved, sluggish, enjoying to the fullest, after time air-dries it, you and I have nothing to do with each other anymore

No answer, what to do, can't stand my own self-deception

Indulging the liked, the hated, the doted, the tired

One by one slowly fading

Indulging the willful, the casual, the presumptuous, the easy

Overturning all the joy

Shouldn't be too soft-hearted, not bold, too rigid, indecisive

Playing around unscrupulously

Shouldn't have abandoned, given up, let go, cut off thoughts

Helpless and impatient

Letting you dodge, I chase, you wander off, I shout

Who is talking in generalities

Letting you come, you smile, you leave, not looking at me

Sharing with what is taken for granted

Don't understand the remaining, useless, redundant, unnecessary

Even holding tightly onto the trash

Don't understand who is blushing, who is unprovoked, who is rigid, who is extreme

Innocent and not knowing why

Indulging the liked, the hated, the doted, the tired

One by one slowly fading

Indulging the willful, the casual, the presumptuous, the easy

Overturning all the joy

Shouldn't be too soft-hearted, not bold, too rigid, indecisive

Playing around unscrupulously

Shouldn't have abandoned, given up, let go, cut off thoughts

Helpless and impatient